[She sees it. Of course she does, because to do otherwise would be to...well, be a bad friend. The hesitation, and the careful way of what he was speaking.
She doesn't take the sip then and instead lowers her glass. Gently so, having the base of the glass rests against her thigh.]
Vincent...
[She starts, and stops. Sighs.]
Forget about the sangria okay? If I make it, or anything else, I'll bring it to you.
And the hair conditioner. You really do need to take the time for your hair. Spilt ends aren't a good look you know.
[ For a second he looks set to protest. But then Vincent closes his eyes and sighs again. There's some mild amusement in his tone as he speaks. ]
...That obvious, huh?
[ At least he isn't denying it. He's clearly not talking about his hair because he will address that in a moment. ]
I don't mind making time for you, Aerith. Just... don't bring anyone else by. Or bring the ingredients and I'll work on my own. I'll send you the results.
[ Compromise. And in his own awkward way, trying to express that it isn't her. The heart is willing but the soul is... weary right now. Another sip of wine is taken. He muses adding a more direct apology, but decides against it for now. Instead it's time to speak about his hair.
This time he does lift his hand, tweaking a lock between his fingers and giving it a puzzled look. ]
[ Related to bringing others over. Regardless he seems to relax a little just on that assurance alone. He's thankful for her understanding, he really is.
Vincent looks up from his hair as he lets his hand drop. The sharp manner of this gesture suggests a denial on his lips. He's not that ignorant. ]
I'm not out to impress anyone you know.
[ Which suggests a few things. One, he might be intentionally lax or not really caring about his hair routine. People care when they want to be presentable and not keep folk at a distance. Two, there was probably a point in his life he did, in fact, take better care of his looks. For one, he was a Turk and there was a certain standard of appearance that goes with wearing the suit... more or less. Two, he did have a woman he fancied.
Aerith will receive a good, hard look when she follows up with her innocent (but not) suggestion of the time and... well, time it will take to correct the tragedy that is Vincent Valentine's hair. And he has to laugh at it. Yes, he understands what she's aiming for. ]
Seems a lot of work. Are you trying to say I'm being too social? Me?
[ Vincent does let his gaze trail to his book and the wine bottle but there's also his old habits of simply splitting off from the party and finding a place to hang out in solitude until he absolutely had to engage in social activities.
Ah but that's the problem isn't it? The normal things Vincent does to keep himself sane in these types of settings, he's either not allowing himself or thinking he can't. And that's saying nothing of whatever traumas the last few days probably dredged up for him which are even more taxing. ]
I would, if I wanted to invite someone over to your room. Which I don't. This is your place.
[Just so Vincent will know. She does have people come over- Cain came over to check on her during the fog, Zack could consider her place an extention of his place, with or without Zeke.
But Vincent needed to recharge. People could and would be a lot at any time.
Hence the hair. And hence while she waited for the implications and the idea to sink in.]
You don't need to do it to impress anyone.
But we've all been through a lot. You made sure I napped when I was pushing myself.
Has anyone looked out for you?
[Has anyone checked in on Vincent at all? Did anyone think to?]
[ One day Vincent might shock Aerith by suggesting a connecting door. But that's still a bit away if it happens at all. It'd just... be convenient? Or something.
But... The gunman doesn't really make it easy for people to check up on him and so when the question about whether people have stopped by or 'looked out for him' is delivered, he answers with a shrug. ]
Yeah, probably. And I do get some sleep on my own.
[ And to be clear the probably means 'yes' but whether or not they're as direct as Aerith is could be in question. Maybe some were even more direct! Maybe she's the first.
It's probably also true that Vincent still is pushing himself in subtle ways. Vincent shifts his regard back to the young woman. ]
...Fine, do what you want. Just don't suggest I cut it.
[ While he makes it sound like it's too much effort or too much of a change to go for a shorter hairstyle (or really any hairstyle at all), there's something in his tone that might infer something deeper.
It really would be too much to go back to having it look like it did when he was still human. ]
[She'd be shocked. Vincent, wanting a connecting door? Then realizing it was to keep a better eye on her and possibly the people dropping by...yeah, that would make sense.
Though the answer of being checked on is vague. And him being able to sleep...well, he may be the Barge's best sleeper.
She waits though to hear the real answer, and gets it. And she nods slowly.]
It'd be kind of silly to suggest you cut it at all. No...I'd just want to make it a little...healthier. Maybe get some tangles.
[ It would also be a way to give her a means to come into his room without NEEDING to knock and wait for permission. But ssh. He's not ready for that. ]
Bathroom.
[ Because of course everything he needs to make himself look nominally presentable is going to be in there. She'll find one that's a fairly decent type, along with a comb. Hair products? Haha! Surely you jest. Well there is shampoo, maybe a little more fancier than can be expected by his attitude. Old habits maybe? After all, why change a product that works? Either way signs are strong that hair care starts and stops at a few post shower ministrations.
Why, you may wonder, does Vincent not fetch these items for himself. Well after pointing Aerith in the direction- maybe as much to give her time to collect an idea of what she has to work with so as to avoid having to answer the questions that could be answered by seeing for herself- she will return to find his wine glass empty. He's removed the red cloak and it's now draped across the back of the chair that had not been in use and finally unwound the scarf that's usually holding his hair away from his eyes. His hair really is long. The few inches drawn up because of wrap and other elements of his clothes now place the longest parts near the tail bone rather than mid-back as it had always seemed. At the same time it's probably clear that there's plenty of different lengths.
Overall, he needed a bit of time to brace himself. Even if it's Aerith, this is still far outside his comfort zone and it's pretty clear that anyone else would have been shoved out of the room for even suggesting this project if they'd dared. ]
[She drifts to the bathroom and it's all there. The brush, the comb, all of it. The shampoo...she takes a moment to smell it. It's expensive. It reminds her of Midgar in its scent somehow. Not bad, but a sense of home no longer there, for any of them anymore.
What she hadn't expected to see- much like a future where their rooms were connected- was the state of...well, undress. Wrap gone, cloak draped. This Vincent is so..vulnerable in a way he wasn't. Not usually.
She nearly turned around from the shock of seeing his hair so long and uneven.
Instead, Aerith strode forward, brush in hand.]
Wherever you want to sit Vincent. And you can out the cloak back on, if you'd like.
It won't get in the way.
[Maybe she should suggest more wine but thay felt insulting.]
[ He just... let it grow. Of course sleeping most of three decades probably contributed to this factor.
Some of it is falling forward to cover his features but that's probably to be expected without the wrap to hold it back. ...Right?
Still it's strange indeed how different it seems right now, compared to when he offered his cloak as a blanket. He didn't seem as stripped bare then. And that's likely because the place was public and he wasn't about to let someone further into his personal space than he generally ever allowed. ]
Hmph. It's already off.
[ He does appreciate it but even in his discomfort or maybe because of some stubborn pride, he isn't going to reach for it. Vincent instead strides to the kitchen table, where a simple backed chair is grabbed and dragged over to an open space. It will be low enough to let Aerith comfortably work. The former Turk sits. ]
My looks can't be that bad, can they?
[ Dry in tone, almost amused. Well... one might suspect he knows his appearance is not bad. The uncanny pallor and his eyes aside, there's nothing at all to suggest that he's less than human nor what he suffered in becoming what he is now. ]
Besides, there's always the wine.
[ Which he isn't going for, but at least now Aerith won't need to be wondering if it would be bad form to suggest it. ]
[It was a long time to let his hair grow. Bangs are to be expected, though having been grown out...it would get into his face.
It was different though. In his space, with his headwrap off, the cloak off...Vincent seemed smaller somehow. Not diminished, but less mysterious, closer to the human he was once. But she waits for him to make his choice, both with whether the cloak would come back on, and where he would sit.]
Vincent? Maybe it's the mysterious aura that you have at all times but?
You're very pretty.
[And she gently pats Vincent on the shoulder as she carefully moves behind him. Sure he's got the whole vampire chic going for him, but no doubt he's gotten his share of looks since his arrival. People here are, Aerith noticed, very hungry for very physical things on the ship.
That all said, she starts to move the comb vertically through his hair. Gentle, careful, as she looks for possible tangles that could be in his locks.]
Since I'm up...want me to refill your glass? It might give you some fortitude in case I find a snarl or something.
[ He isn't exactly flustered and the complaint is probably offered more as an outlet for his general anxiety over being exposed. But yeah, he's going to be the type to complain about being called 'pretty'. The way the indifference settles quickly again suggests that thoughts of his personal appearance in the eyes of others simply do not linger if they'd crossed his mind at all.
The heat of attraction to another has not warmed his body for a very long time.
As was mentioned before, his hair is still lightly damp and cool. And just as you would expect from towel-dried hair that was wrapped back up, there's going to be a few snags and wavy bits to smooth out. Though for what it's worth, there's nothing egregious; he'd done some due diligence with comb and brush. ]
I won't say no.
[ To the wine. Even if he's fully aware that he won't need it to fight against the pain of some persnickety knot. ]
[She chuckles under her breath. She might tell him one day of how Cloud had been pretty when he was dressed up after the Honey Bee Inn. But it really wasn't about finding him a romance. She never even thought. This was more...to bring him all centered. Relax him even, if that was possible with someone being around.
Even if that someone was her.
Though his hair was still mildly damp, it does seem to be easy to brush. But she pauses in her detangling in order to come around and refill his glass of wine. ]
Here you go.
[She offers it to him. Once it's taken, she'll go back to the snags and waves.]
[ Yes, Aerith. Tell Vincent the comparison she's trying to make for pretty people was the same as that time Cloud got dolled up in drag. He might then have some concerns about what plans she has for him. The former Turk sighs. Of course his protest wasn't the point. The banter however is going to help.
So is that wine, which he takes when she brings it over and has a sip before she's settled in to begin again. Never fear, the process will not interfere with his ability to take the occasional drink and he has quite the high pain tolerance besides. There's still tension in his shoulders; something far more easily read without the added layer of red over his clothes.
There is always the common risk that time with Vincent Valentine would be subject to long moments of absolute silence. Where people can tell him stories he can react to works out just fine. If it's business, he can talk quite a bit. But times like this are when he's out of his element. For a few long moments he struggles to find something to say just for the sake of saying something. ]
...Did you manage to get some sleep?
[ It's... not really small talk. There he goes, caring again. ]
[Thankfully, she did not have to sneak Vincent anywhere in a dress. Nor was there a reason to dress him up. To even dress him down even...though she was sure he'd be comfortable in sweatpants and a hoodie, given the chance.
Aerith's hands are gentle, and gentler still around the few snags he has. The waves of his hair she thinks might be due to the headband.
But the tension in hid shoulders...maybe this was too much? She wasn't sure.
The topic choice does make her huff though and she offers his shoulder the gentlest of pushes.]
Yes, I did. It's getting easier. Hakkai and Ulla were very helpful.
I was wondering how you've been sleeping. I doubt you stayed here the whole time.
[Meaning he also saw thinks that hid in the dark.]
[ Would he wear comfy lounging clothes? Yes. Would he allow himself to be caught in them? DUBIOUS.
The waves are almost certainly because of the wrap as the comb does bring back a natural tendency to straight locks as the work progresses. Whatever else can be said about the man's grooming habits, they have not done any real harm to the thick mane.
Aerith might even note how he occasionally lifts a hand, intending to comb the long bangs back out of his face before remembering someone's actually working on it. ]
Good.
[ He's going to absolutely ignore the slight shove to his shoulder but stills, this time arresting the motion of bringing the glass of wine to his lips again. Silence. ]
No, I didn't.
[ In fact the times he found his room, particularly after the Otherworld fully descended on the Barge, were only very short visits to wash off the worst of the grime, restock on bullets and get back out to work. But it's not really about how much work he put in. It's what he had to confront.
She's behind him. But still without the cloak's high collar there's more of his face to see or glimpse if she's a mind to. The way his jaw might clench as he thinks of how to answer; there's no real good one here if he wants to be honest. And it's probably not worth it to lie. ]
Same as ever. [ Quietly spoken. A forced dry tone. ] Hmph. It's been a long time since I slept without nightmares to haunt me. Nothing that place could do about that.
[ And it's true in its horrible way. The Otherworld had created elements of his trauma, sure. But what nightmares could it have created that would have matched ones he'd endured for three decades? Well, that's certainly terrible enough to think about.
He finishes the glass of wine and absently twists it in his fingers, looking thoughtful. ]
The worst it could do is expose what I am to others.
[ He almost sounds amused. After all, how out of place was he on the Barge, really? ]
[ Please, why limit him to being caught dead in bunny slippers when there is a perfectly good chocobo themed set somewhere out there in the multiverse? ]
That's not what I meant. I know who I am. What I've been and how I choose to be.
[ It's almost a bit dry at that. One has to accept what sort of person they are- or are capable of being- if they were ever once a member of the Turks. The skills that go with it are certain to never cause him to be a burden in the traditional sense. ]
There were people who saw my other form. Couldn't be helped. And it was going to happen eventually, I suppose.
[ The meaning had come after silence where Vincent had offered a moment's... empathy. Things about Aerith she didn't want to have revealed. Of course he wants to ask and despite her fingers in his hair, he turns his head enough to try and look up toward her. But first, he offers what of his was exposed. Not a nightmare or a burden.
Monster. Something many may just brush off as being a facet of the Otherworld. Others might guess or know what they saw. ]
[She thinks he'd look quite dashing in a chocobo onesie! With soft lil chocobo claws on his feet. That'll have to be a gift for him, someday.
But there he went. Yes, one thing to show that he had a monstrous form- wasn't that true of the vampires here and others? If he wanted to play that card, it could be mistaken as a monster of guilt.
She didn't have any fear of that form. Just a reasonable caution, since Vincent was...Vincent. He knew his limits better than anyone. He was a Turk, and...other things.
When he looked at her, she tilted her face down. A hand did go to his shoulder- not to comfort, but just...to have it there.]
Hilbert knows a little now. I showed him. I was angry.
[Not told. Showed. There's a difference.]
And most people still don't know I'm dead. Just that... lab-coated monsters liked pinning me to the wall.
Guess I'm lucky. I don't have a clear picture of the people I killed with Holy.
[ It was not the act of showing that would have troubled Vincent. Whatever downsides came with that part of him, there were a lot of benefits. His body was a 'mixed blessing' as he once told Nanaki. And as he said, it was probably only a matter of time even in a place like the Barge.
Which goes to show he wasn't completely free from the traumas the Otherworld was capable of inflicting. Of course he wasn't. 'There wasn't much' doesn't mean there was nothing at all. A deeply private person, of course Vincent would be bothered that it was not a time or place of his choosing to reveal it.
But the nightmares are still bad, his body has the genes of monsters. He's still human enough to be left aching from old memories, even those which have gained some form of closure.
He's just... practiced at it. One might say normalized. And it's enough in some ways to be in the company of someone who has long accepted that as part of the whole him. ]
You were angry at Hilbert?
[ That did seem to come as a surprise. But he had not looked deeply into the man's past actions, only focused on what was related to an incident shortly before he came. What would have made Aerith so angry? And was the doctor simply in the wrong place at the right time or was it more? Showed. Vincent's lips are drawn downward with a frown of concern.
And this only deepens as she speaks a hint of what she endured. He lifts a hand up and covers hers. There had been a shadowy figure in the heart of his trauma, ready and waiting to turn more victims into the gibbering horde of 'chimera' that would swarm Vincent and force him to expose the monstrous side. But whether one or many labcoats, Vincent can empathize with this particular anguish. Just as so many of them could. Cloud and Nanaki and... likely even Sephiroth. ]
I won't say something stupid. Like you had nothing to do with the death of those people. Cry for them. Remember them.
[ It is true that a host of other factors were the true cause, like Sephiroth's efforts to block Holy until the very last moment or even the cursed memories that came with the Lifestream, again through that madman's actions having far more to do with so many people losing their lives. That won't change the simple fact that a lot of people lost their lives in general through the course of action every one of them took. Aerith's summoning of Holy included.
That is the real wages of saving the world. The burden of all that. ]
But never forget the lives you saved as well. There's a lot of people living because of what you did. A lot of people... found the will to live and survive. Because you summoned Holy.
[They were both surprisingly private people. They had thay in common. The difference was, amusing enough, that Vincent was practical and pragmatic in having his monster parts out on display.
Aerith was completely wild shy about declaring what she was. Some days, she wasn't even sure what it meant, being a cetra in this ship.]
He's a former Inmate Vincent. He experimented on people before. Hilbert isn't even his only name. He's a doctor but also a scientist.
But...I'm willing to give him a chance. Showing him- that was also a test.
[A fairly high risk one but one nonetheless. She gave his hand a gentle squeeze, even as she offered a gentle shuddery sigh.]
I'll try. I'll try to remember.
[Cloud was alive because of Holy. So was Vincent. Tifa, Yuffie and Nanaki...all life would be gone if Holy had not been unleashed.]
[ The brief stillness to Vincent suggests the troubled emotion that this revelation gleans from the man. His eyes narrow. It probably wasn't entirely a surprise that Hilbert was a former inmate. But the suggestion of what likely landed him that status when he first arrived...
Vincent may be able to deal with being in the infirmary. But that doesn't mean he is completely immune from... memories. But there is more to it than that. A rise of guilt over information he had missed. ]
Hm. Looks like I'll have to look more carefully at the infirmary staff. How did he react?
[ Yeah, soon after this Hilbert will announce his departure from the Barge. But now Vincent has reason to look a little harder and deeper at the others who have accepted a role in the medical sector.
He didn't mean to sound indifferent, yet his words seemed to come out almost so. And as if in belated realization, his eyes shift away again, letting him face forward. ]
...Sorry.
[ There'll be time to answer the question though if Aerith chooses to; the apology seems to suggest if she doesn't want to she doesn't have to. But when they move on and speak of Holy, the gunman only nods. ]
Upset at what I showed him. Curious, but willing to keep it to himself.
[She offered a gentle shrug.]
There weren't any of the liars tells. If I thought he was a serious threat to the infirmary, I would have told you as soon as we parted ways.
If I learn more, I'll tell you. Same with any of the other workers.
[They're friends after all, and she doesn't want Vincent in undue danger. Sure he can take care of himself, but he needs some time to do paperwork.
Thankfully with Hilbert leaving some issues are put aside. But there is still a lack of trust now thay she's instilled in Vincent. Or at least brought to the surface.
Pity, but at least it was in a harmless discovery, all things considered.
And she shook her head, giving his shoulder a gentle squeeze.]
It's okay. I get it.
And...we will. We could...if we wanted, make a memorial.
But...I'd rather make it a living thing if we do.
[Something in the chapel. Or the Greenhouse. Something to remember the living and those that were gone.]
[ The good or bad. The new, the unknown, the search for answers. Those are what drew them in. Vincent knew it well and not just because of three decades past; he'd grown up coming to terms with those traits for better or worse.
Aerith's assurance of passing the word is given a brief nod. He trusts her evaluation of the encounter with Hilbert and that she could recognize the more dangerous signs just as well as he. And thus he is left with little excuse to avoid more paperwork.
Sigh. ]
Mm.
[ Forgiveness acknowledged. But the shoulder is still covered by his own hand and he seems surprised to realize it was still there when she offered the reassuring squeeze. Once she releases again, he'll slowly withdraw his hand... well, kind of slowly. It is a bit abrupt and almost awkward, along with a brief stint of staring at it before letting it drop to his lap. ]
...Sure.
[ It's not at all a bad idea. And Vincent's agreement is not about the memorial as it is about the we Aerith put forward. ]
Something living. [ There is a second where his head tilts a little to regard the succulent she had helped pick out for him. Just sitting there, living its best life near the curtained window. During the day he must open it a crack to make sure it gets adequate sun. Or what passes for sun coming through those panes. Anyway, a living memorial. It really was far superior to have, wasn't it? ]
...I suppose it wouldn't hurt to ask the others.
[ What sort of living thing would work best for the memorial of their world? Though that does leave a troubling complication. Vincent does not yet speak it, but surely by 'the others' there would possibly be one exception.
In the form of the individual who sought the world's end. ]
Especially from something that's so alien from what he knows.
[She agrees with him but there was a bit of driness. Ah yes- she knows how far a scientist would go. And she was one of the lucky ones, all things considered. And she knows it. The proof of how nasty a scientist could be without morals is sitting right in front of her, hair tumbling over his shoulders. Which says nothing about the SOLIDERs that also come from their world. It may have helped too that she grew up around Turks. She would know some of the things that he would look for.
So no paperwork avoidance for him.
Or avoiding contact. Some of which he is still getting used to, after thirty years without. But at least Aerith was very gentle about it, not letting him get overwhelmed by the contact- gentle as it was. ]
We can include him, if he wants to join in.
[He did seem to be at least neutral about...doing some things. Well. Sort of. The memorial would be something...and she thought that it might be good for Sephiroth if he did have something in his room other than a big ol' graffiti on the wall. The cat was good.]
I won't force it. But...we've gotten off topic.
[She sees what you did Vincent. And she's now more worried about you then before. No need to divert and change the subject if things were okay.]
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Date: 2024-09-01 06:27 am (UTC)She doesn't take the sip then and instead lowers her glass. Gently so, having the base of the glass rests against her thigh.]
Vincent...
[She starts, and stops. Sighs.]
Forget about the sangria okay? If I make it, or anything else, I'll bring it to you.
And the hair conditioner. You really do need to take the time for your hair. Spilt ends aren't a good look you know.
[And she. Finally takes a sip.]
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Date: 2024-09-01 07:17 am (UTC)...That obvious, huh?
[ At least he isn't denying it. He's clearly not talking about his hair because he will address that in a moment. ]
I don't mind making time for you, Aerith. Just... don't bring anyone else by. Or bring the ingredients and I'll work on my own. I'll send you the results.
[ Compromise. And in his own awkward way, trying to express that it isn't her. The heart is willing but the soul is... weary right now. Another sip of wine is taken. He muses adding a more direct apology, but decides against it for now. Instead it's time to speak about his hair.
This time he does lift his hand, tweaking a lock between his fingers and giving it a puzzled look. ]
...It's not that bad.
[ It's not exactly good, either. ]
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Date: 2024-09-01 07:24 am (UTC)[So not the most obvious unless they were a friend.]
And I wouldn't dream of it. Being in here, with you, is a trust. I might allow people into my room, but you get to keep your space to yourself.
[She glances at him sidelong as she gently swirls her wine.]
You don't see it? I have a lot to teach you then.
After all...proper hair treatment can take hours. Even days, if it's damaged.
Can't go out with a towel on your head and all.
[He offered a compromise. And she's offering a solution to a possible social problem, with her being to blame.]
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Date: 2024-09-02 04:14 am (UTC)[ Related to bringing others over. Regardless he seems to relax a little just on that assurance alone. He's thankful for her understanding, he really is.
Vincent looks up from his hair as he lets his hand drop. The sharp manner of this gesture suggests a denial on his lips. He's not that ignorant. ]
I'm not out to impress anyone you know.
[ Which suggests a few things. One, he might be intentionally lax or not really caring about his hair routine. People care when they want to be presentable and not keep folk at a distance. Two, there was probably a point in his life he did, in fact, take better care of his looks. For one, he was a Turk and there was a certain standard of appearance that goes with wearing the suit... more or less. Two, he did have a woman he fancied.
Aerith will receive a good, hard look when she follows up with her innocent (but not) suggestion of the time and... well, time it will take to correct the tragedy that is Vincent Valentine's hair. And he has to laugh at it. Yes, he understands what she's aiming for. ]
Seems a lot of work. Are you trying to say I'm being too social? Me?
[ Vincent does let his gaze trail to his book and the wine bottle but there's also his old habits of simply splitting off from the party and finding a place to hang out in solitude until he absolutely had to engage in social activities.
Ah but that's the problem isn't it? The normal things Vincent does to keep himself sane in these types of settings, he's either not allowing himself or thinking he can't. And that's saying nothing of whatever traumas the last few days probably dredged up for him which are even more taxing. ]
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Date: 2024-09-02 04:41 am (UTC)[Just so Vincent will know. She does have people come over- Cain came over to check on her during the fog, Zack could consider her place an extention of his place, with or without Zeke.
But Vincent needed to recharge. People could and would be a lot at any time.
Hence the hair. And hence while she waited for the implications and the idea to sink in.]
You don't need to do it to impress anyone.
But we've all been through a lot. You made sure I napped when I was pushing myself.
Has anyone looked out for you?
[Has anyone checked in on Vincent at all? Did anyone think to?]
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Date: 2024-09-02 05:10 am (UTC)But... The gunman doesn't really make it easy for people to check up on him and so when the question about whether people have stopped by or 'looked out for him' is delivered, he answers with a shrug. ]
Yeah, probably. And I do get some sleep on my own.
[ And to be clear the probably means 'yes' but whether or not they're as direct as Aerith is could be in question. Maybe some were even more direct! Maybe she's the first.
It's probably also true that Vincent still is pushing himself in subtle ways. Vincent shifts his regard back to the young woman. ]
...Fine, do what you want. Just don't suggest I cut it.
[ While he makes it sound like it's too much effort or too much of a change to go for a shorter hairstyle (or really any hairstyle at all), there's something in his tone that might infer something deeper.
It really would be too much to go back to having it look like it did when he was still human. ]
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Date: 2024-09-02 05:49 am (UTC)Though the answer of being checked on is vague. And him being able to sleep...well, he may be the Barge's best sleeper.
She waits though to hear the real answer, and gets it. And she nods slowly.]
It'd be kind of silly to suggest you cut it at all. No...I'd just want to make it a little...healthier. Maybe get some tangles.
Where's your hairbrush?
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Date: 2024-09-02 06:36 am (UTC)Bathroom.
[ Because of course everything he needs to make himself look nominally presentable is going to be in there. She'll find one that's a fairly decent type, along with a comb. Hair products? Haha! Surely you jest. Well there is shampoo, maybe a little more fancier than can be expected by his attitude. Old habits maybe? After all, why change a product that works? Either way signs are strong that hair care starts and stops at a few post shower ministrations.
Why, you may wonder, does Vincent not fetch these items for himself. Well after pointing Aerith in the direction- maybe as much to give her time to collect an idea of what she has to work with so as to avoid having to answer the questions that could be answered by seeing for herself- she will return to find his wine glass empty. He's removed the red cloak and it's now draped across the back of the chair that had not been in use and finally unwound the scarf that's usually holding his hair away from his eyes. His hair really is long. The few inches drawn up because of wrap and other elements of his clothes now place the longest parts near the tail bone rather than mid-back as it had always seemed. At the same time it's probably clear that there's plenty of different lengths.
Overall, he needed a bit of time to brace himself. Even if it's Aerith, this is still far outside his comfort zone and it's pretty clear that anyone else would have been shoved out of the room for even suggesting this project if they'd dared. ]
Where do you want me to sit?
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Date: 2024-09-02 09:21 am (UTC)[She drifts to the bathroom and it's all there. The brush, the comb, all of it. The shampoo...she takes a moment to smell it. It's expensive. It reminds her of Midgar in its scent somehow. Not bad, but a sense of home no longer there, for any of them anymore.
What she hadn't expected to see- much like a future where their rooms were connected- was the state of...well, undress. Wrap gone, cloak draped. This Vincent is so..vulnerable in a way he wasn't. Not usually.
She nearly turned around from the shock of seeing his hair so long and uneven.
Instead, Aerith strode forward, brush in hand.]
Wherever you want to sit Vincent. And you can out the cloak back on, if you'd like.
It won't get in the way.
[Maybe she should suggest more wine but thay felt insulting.]
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Date: 2024-09-02 09:45 am (UTC)Some of it is falling forward to cover his features but that's probably to be expected without the wrap to hold it back. ...Right?
Still it's strange indeed how different it seems right now, compared to when he offered his cloak as a blanket. He didn't seem as stripped bare then. And that's likely because the place was public and he wasn't about to let someone further into his personal space than he generally ever allowed. ]
Hmph. It's already off.
[ He does appreciate it but even in his discomfort or maybe because of some stubborn pride, he isn't going to reach for it. Vincent instead strides to the kitchen table, where a simple backed chair is grabbed and dragged over to an open space. It will be low enough to let Aerith comfortably work. The former Turk sits. ]
My looks can't be that bad, can they?
[ Dry in tone, almost amused. Well... one might suspect he knows his appearance is not bad. The uncanny pallor and his eyes aside, there's nothing at all to suggest that he's less than human nor what he suffered in becoming what he is now. ]
Besides, there's always the wine.
[ Which he isn't going for, but at least now Aerith won't need to be wondering if it would be bad form to suggest it. ]
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Date: 2024-09-02 07:33 pm (UTC)It was different though. In his space, with his headwrap off, the cloak off...Vincent seemed smaller somehow. Not diminished, but less mysterious, closer to the human he was once. But she waits for him to make his choice, both with whether the cloak would come back on, and where he would sit.]
Vincent? Maybe it's the mysterious aura that you have at all times but?
You're very pretty.
[And she gently pats Vincent on the shoulder as she carefully moves behind him. Sure he's got the whole vampire chic going for him, but no doubt he's gotten his share of looks since his arrival. People here are, Aerith noticed, very hungry for very physical things on the ship.
That all said, she starts to move the comb vertically through his hair. Gentle, careful, as she looks for possible tangles that could be in his locks.]
Since I'm up...want me to refill your glass? It might give you some fortitude in case I find a snarl or something.
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Date: 2024-09-02 07:56 pm (UTC)[ He isn't exactly flustered and the complaint is probably offered more as an outlet for his general anxiety over being exposed. But yeah, he's going to be the type to complain about being called 'pretty'. The way the indifference settles quickly again suggests that thoughts of his personal appearance in the eyes of others simply do not linger if they'd crossed his mind at all.
The heat of attraction to another has not warmed his body for a very long time.
As was mentioned before, his hair is still lightly damp and cool. And just as you would expect from towel-dried hair that was wrapped back up, there's going to be a few snags and wavy bits to smooth out. Though for what it's worth, there's nothing egregious; he'd done some due diligence with comb and brush. ]
I won't say no.
[ To the wine. Even if he's fully aware that he won't need it to fight against the pain of some persnickety knot. ]
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Date: 2024-09-03 02:24 am (UTC)[She chuckles under her breath. She might tell him one day of how Cloud had been pretty when he was dressed up after the Honey Bee Inn. But it really wasn't about finding him a romance. She never even thought. This was more...to bring him all centered. Relax him even, if that was possible with someone being around.
Even if that someone was her.
Though his hair was still mildly damp, it does seem to be easy to brush. But she pauses in her detangling in order to come around and refill his glass of wine. ]
Here you go.
[She offers it to him. Once it's taken, she'll go back to the snags and waves.]
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Date: 2024-09-03 04:27 am (UTC)So is that wine, which he takes when she brings it over and has a sip before she's settled in to begin again. Never fear, the process will not interfere with his ability to take the occasional drink and he has quite the high pain tolerance besides. There's still tension in his shoulders; something far more easily read without the added layer of red over his clothes.
There is always the common risk that time with Vincent Valentine would be subject to long moments of absolute silence. Where people can tell him stories he can react to works out just fine. If it's business, he can talk quite a bit. But times like this are when he's out of his element. For a few long moments he struggles to find something to say just for the sake of saying something. ]
...Did you manage to get some sleep?
[ It's... not really small talk. There he goes, caring again. ]
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Date: 2024-09-03 05:17 am (UTC)Aerith's hands are gentle, and gentler still around the few snags he has. The waves of his hair she thinks might be due to the headband.
But the tension in hid shoulders...maybe this was too much? She wasn't sure.
The topic choice does make her huff though and she offers his shoulder the gentlest of pushes.]
Yes, I did. It's getting easier. Hakkai and Ulla were very helpful.
I was wondering how you've been sleeping. I doubt you stayed here the whole time.
[Meaning he also saw thinks that hid in the dark.]
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Date: 2024-09-03 05:45 am (UTC)The waves are almost certainly because of the wrap as the comb does bring back a natural tendency to straight locks as the work progresses. Whatever else can be said about the man's grooming habits, they have not done any real harm to the thick mane.
Aerith might even note how he occasionally lifts a hand, intending to comb the long bangs back out of his face before remembering someone's actually working on it. ]
Good.
[ He's going to absolutely ignore the slight shove to his shoulder but stills, this time arresting the motion of bringing the glass of wine to his lips again. Silence. ]
No, I didn't.
[ In fact the times he found his room, particularly after the Otherworld fully descended on the Barge, were only very short visits to wash off the worst of the grime, restock on bullets and get back out to work. But it's not really about how much work he put in. It's what he had to confront.
She's behind him. But still without the cloak's high collar there's more of his face to see or glimpse if she's a mind to. The way his jaw might clench as he thinks of how to answer; there's no real good one here if he wants to be honest. And it's probably not worth it to lie. ]
Same as ever. [ Quietly spoken. A forced dry tone. ] Hmph. It's been a long time since I slept without nightmares to haunt me. Nothing that place could do about that.
[ And it's true in its horrible way. The Otherworld had created elements of his trauma, sure. But what nightmares could it have created that would have matched ones he'd endured for three decades? Well, that's certainly terrible enough to think about.
He finishes the glass of wine and absently twists it in his fingers, looking thoughtful. ]
The worst it could do is expose what I am to others.
[ He almost sounds amused. After all, how out of place was he on the Barge, really? ]
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Date: 2024-09-03 01:49 pm (UTC)But it is smart of him. No attempt to lie would go well. She knew he was filled with regrets and nightmares.
She sighed, and having finished with the comb, she picked up the hairbrush.]
You make it sound as if you're a nightmare on a regular basis.
Or that you're a burden.
Neither which are true.
[Her fingers were gentle on his hair.]
Though...I know I took that risk too.
[Not a monster. But the other things she is.]
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Date: 2024-09-03 09:49 pm (UTC)That's not what I meant. I know who I am. What I've been and how I choose to be.
[ It's almost a bit dry at that. One has to accept what sort of person they are- or are capable of being- if they were ever once a member of the Turks. The skills that go with it are certain to never cause him to be a burden in the traditional sense. ]
There were people who saw my other form. Couldn't be helped. And it was going to happen eventually, I suppose.
[ The meaning had come after silence where Vincent had offered a moment's... empathy. Things about Aerith she didn't want to have revealed. Of course he wants to ask and despite her fingers in his hair, he turns his head enough to try and look up toward her. But first, he offers what of his was exposed. Not a nightmare or a burden.
Monster. Something many may just brush off as being a facet of the Otherworld. Others might guess or know what they saw. ]
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Date: 2024-09-04 01:02 am (UTC)But there he went. Yes, one thing to show that he had a monstrous form- wasn't that true of the vampires here and others? If he wanted to play that card, it could be mistaken as a monster of guilt.
She didn't have any fear of that form. Just a reasonable caution, since Vincent was...Vincent. He knew his limits better than anyone. He was a Turk, and...other things.
When he looked at her, she tilted her face down. A hand did go to his shoulder- not to comfort, but just...to have it there.]
Hilbert knows a little now. I showed him. I was angry.
[Not told. Showed. There's a difference.]
And most people still don't know I'm dead. Just that... lab-coated monsters liked pinning me to the wall.
Guess I'm lucky. I don't have a clear picture of the people I killed with Holy.
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Date: 2024-09-04 05:56 am (UTC)Which goes to show he wasn't completely free from the traumas the Otherworld was capable of inflicting. Of course he wasn't. 'There wasn't much' doesn't mean there was nothing at all. A deeply private person, of course Vincent would be bothered that it was not a time or place of his choosing to reveal it.
But the nightmares are still bad, his body has the genes of monsters. He's still human enough to be left aching from old memories, even those which have gained some form of closure.
He's just... practiced at it. One might say normalized. And it's enough in some ways to be in the company of someone who has long accepted that as part of the whole him. ]
You were angry at Hilbert?
[ That did seem to come as a surprise. But he had not looked deeply into the man's past actions, only focused on what was related to an incident shortly before he came. What would have made Aerith so angry? And was the doctor simply in the wrong place at the right time or was it more? Showed. Vincent's lips are drawn downward with a frown of concern.
And this only deepens as she speaks a hint of what she endured. He lifts a hand up and covers hers. There had been a shadowy figure in the heart of his trauma, ready and waiting to turn more victims into the gibbering horde of 'chimera' that would swarm Vincent and force him to expose the monstrous side. But whether one or many labcoats, Vincent can empathize with this particular anguish. Just as so many of them could. Cloud and Nanaki and... likely even Sephiroth. ]
I won't say something stupid. Like you had nothing to do with the death of those people. Cry for them. Remember them.
[ It is true that a host of other factors were the true cause, like Sephiroth's efforts to block Holy until the very last moment or even the cursed memories that came with the Lifestream, again through that madman's actions having far more to do with so many people losing their lives. That won't change the simple fact that a lot of people lost their lives in general through the course of action every one of them took. Aerith's summoning of Holy included.
That is the real wages of saving the world. The burden of all that. ]
But never forget the lives you saved as well. There's a lot of people living because of what you did. A lot of people... found the will to live and survive. Because you summoned Holy.
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Date: 2024-09-04 11:31 pm (UTC)Aerith was completely wild shy about declaring what she was. Some days, she wasn't even sure what it meant, being a cetra in this ship.]
He's a former Inmate Vincent. He experimented on people before. Hilbert isn't even his only name. He's a doctor but also a scientist.
But...I'm willing to give him a chance. Showing him- that was also a test.
[A fairly high risk one but one nonetheless. She gave his hand a gentle squeeze, even as she offered a gentle shuddery sigh.]
I'll try. I'll try to remember.
[Cloud was alive because of Holy. So was Vincent. Tifa, Yuffie and Nanaki...all life would be gone if Holy had not been unleashed.]
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Date: 2024-09-06 02:50 am (UTC)Vincent may be able to deal with being in the infirmary. But that doesn't mean he is completely immune from... memories. But there is more to it than that. A rise of guilt over information he had missed. ]
Hm. Looks like I'll have to look more carefully at the infirmary staff. How did he react?
[ Yeah, soon after this Hilbert will announce his departure from the Barge. But now Vincent has reason to look a little harder and deeper at the others who have accepted a role in the medical sector.
He didn't mean to sound indifferent, yet his words seemed to come out almost so. And as if in belated realization, his eyes shift away again, letting him face forward. ]
...Sorry.
[ There'll be time to answer the question though if Aerith chooses to; the apology seems to suggest if she doesn't want to she doesn't have to. But when they move on and speak of Holy, the gunman only nods. ]
That's all we can do. Try to remember.
[ We. Not just Aerith. The bad and the good. ]
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Date: 2024-09-07 04:56 am (UTC)[She offered a gentle shrug.]
There weren't any of the liars tells. If I thought he was a serious threat to the infirmary, I would have told you as soon as we parted ways.
If I learn more, I'll tell you. Same with any of the other workers.
[They're friends after all, and she doesn't want Vincent in undue danger. Sure he can take care of himself, but he needs some time to do paperwork.
Thankfully with Hilbert leaving some issues are put aside. But there is still a lack of trust now thay she's instilled in Vincent. Or at least brought to the surface.
Pity, but at least it was in a harmless discovery, all things considered.
And she shook her head, giving his shoulder a gentle squeeze.]
It's okay. I get it.
And...we will. We could...if we wanted, make a memorial.
But...I'd rather make it a living thing if we do.
[Something in the chapel. Or the Greenhouse. Something to remember the living and those that were gone.]
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Date: 2024-09-07 08:54 am (UTC)[ The good or bad. The new, the unknown, the search for answers. Those are what drew them in. Vincent knew it well and not just because of three decades past; he'd grown up coming to terms with those traits for better or worse.
Aerith's assurance of passing the word is given a brief nod. He trusts her evaluation of the encounter with Hilbert and that she could recognize the more dangerous signs just as well as he. And thus he is left with little excuse to avoid more paperwork.
Sigh. ]
Mm.
[ Forgiveness acknowledged. But the shoulder is still covered by his own hand and he seems surprised to realize it was still there when she offered the reassuring squeeze. Once she releases again, he'll slowly withdraw his hand... well, kind of slowly. It is a bit abrupt and almost awkward, along with a brief stint of staring at it before letting it drop to his lap. ]
...Sure.
[ It's not at all a bad idea. And Vincent's agreement is not about the memorial as it is about the we Aerith put forward. ]
Something living. [ There is a second where his head tilts a little to regard the succulent she had helped pick out for him. Just sitting there, living its best life near the curtained window. During the day he must open it a crack to make sure it gets adequate sun. Or what passes for sun coming through those panes. Anyway, a living memorial. It really was far superior to have, wasn't it? ]
...I suppose it wouldn't hurt to ask the others.
[ What sort of living thing would work best for the memorial of their world? Though that does leave a troubling complication. Vincent does not yet speak it, but surely by 'the others' there would possibly be one exception.
In the form of the individual who sought the world's end. ]
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Date: 2024-09-08 07:45 am (UTC)[She agrees with him but there was a bit of driness. Ah yes- she knows how far a scientist would go. And she was one of the lucky ones, all things considered. And she knows it. The proof of how nasty a scientist could be without morals is sitting right in front of her, hair tumbling over his shoulders. Which says nothing about the SOLIDERs that also come from their world. It may have helped too that she grew up around Turks. She would know some of the things that he would look for.
So no paperwork avoidance for him.
Or avoiding contact. Some of which he is still getting used to, after thirty years without. But at least Aerith was very gentle about it, not letting him get overwhelmed by the contact- gentle as it was. ]
We can include him, if he wants to join in.
[He did seem to be at least neutral about...doing some things. Well. Sort of. The memorial would be something...and she thought that it might be good for Sephiroth if he did have something in his room other than a big ol' graffiti on the wall. The cat was good.]
I won't force it. But...we've gotten off topic.
[She sees what you did Vincent. And she's now more worried about you then before. No need to divert and change the subject if things were okay.]
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